I have friends, but still I .....

I have friends, but still I .....

Sometimes, it feels like you've spent most of your college life—three out of four years—yet you still don't have anyone truly close to you. This feeling hurts, but what could be the reason? I guess I’ve spent most of my college years exploring myself and doing what I truly want.

People often say,

"You’re having a great life; everyone knows you."

But what does that really mean? Does it mean taking on more workload, managing events, and constantly organizing things? In reality,

"I have friends, but still I ....."

What about my classmates? My so-called friends? The ones who seem perfectly fine without me in their circle—until they need something. Suddenly, when there’s work to be done, they remember me and act as if I’ve always been part of their group. But is that what friendship truly means? Friendship isn’t just about remembering someone when it’s convenient. Sometimes, a simple

"hi"

or a casual conversation asking

"How are you?"

can mean a lot.

Yet, in today’s busy world, everyone seems caught up in their own lives. You're only valued when you're beneficial to someone. And perhaps, that’s the reality of friendships now—everyone has a replacement for everyone. That old, genuine friendship vibe seems to have faded away.

Now, it feels like we are forced to choose: friendship or career.

And that’s why I believe—I have a lot of friends, but still I don’t.